I am bored out of my mind. I mean seriously. Bored out of my mind. And it’s only 10:30 in the morning! You’d think that I couldn’t be this bored for being up only two hours. Well, its true, therefore you’re wrong. Actually, I just feel like shit. My allergies are bugging me (from being outside yesterday and all). Anyway, it sucks.
And I’m bored.
I have things I could be doing, sure. I started to clean my room yesterday, got to the part where it all is a bigger mess than I started with (that’s how it goes, I make a bigger mess, but an organized one, then clean) and well, I didn’t get anywhere past that. I stopped and watched “Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers” instead. I love that movie….”Give it to us rraaaawwww and wriggling. You keep nasty chips” <–yes, that is Gollum/Smeagol, and yes, I love that line, and yes, I am a freak.
I should probably finish cleaning sometime, I just have no energy for it right now.
I got a new idea for a story, even though I said that I was quitting the writing idea. Okay, I quit the idea of being a writer, doesn’t mean I can’t write, so I’m going to. Hopefully I can actually write this one instead of keeping the idea on a piece of paper, or getting it to a point, getting bored, and stopping. I hate that part. I have no ambition, no motivation. It’s very sad, in my mind. Oh well, that’s what happens to me, all too often: I lose all sense of ambition and motivation. Things that I liked aren’t worth doing, things that I want to aren’t worth the effort, and I didn’t really want to do it that badly to begin with.
If that’s not fucked up, I don’t know what is, that’s all I got.
Tags: Allergies, Ambition, Bored, Cleaning, Effort, Finish, Fucked Up, Gollum, Idea, Lord of the Rings, Mess, Morning, Motivation, Organized, Paper, Quit, Smeagol, Stopping, Story, The Two Towers, Writing
July 26, 2008 at 01:07
I feel your pain. I have no motivation either and I don’t feel like doing anything even though there are so many things I could/should be doing I just have no motivation for it. It’s like what’s the point? All these materialstic things come to end and they’re not comming with me so what’s worth it? I don’t know it’s almost 6 AM and I can’t sleep. It sucks. If you want to write, write you never know when your going to get that great idea that will get and keep you motivated.
July 26, 2008 at 09:07
6 AM and you can’t sleep? God that would suck. I’ve only made it up that early/late a handful of times, but that’s only because I was doing something – If I’m not, I will most definitely crash. I don’t know, just, like, there are things that should get done, like you said, and could get done, but there’s no real reason to do it, so I don’t feel like it – which sounds like what’s happening to you too. I think, however, that just means that you ought to find something to be motivated about……I’ve tried that though, it’s hard.